Loneliness....

I am all alone, all to myself,

I sit at the corner of the bed.

And think about the promises that were made,

Made to be broken.

I think of those late night talks,

And those words of love,

Which were all fake.

Now you have left me,

And i am all alone, all to myself.

Forgetting you is not my cup of tea,

But you have sipped yours.

I remember about speaking of death,

Hearing it you would fight.

But now you don't even see that i am dying a thousand deaths everyday.

I always thought love was divine,

But now i know its not.

It is pain in disguise.

And now the tears have dried, but the pain still strikes.

You silently left me all alone,

I could'nt even understand that....

I waited for you, 

Then i understood you would'nt come

And now that i know you are too far to reach out.

You are happy, but i am not.

I still search the pages of my past,

Trying to find where i went wrong.

Now i understand.....

I was'nt wrong,

It was my fate which was wrong....

And, thus,

Am all alone and all to myself.................

The journey from love to heartbraek.........

When you are in love, the world seems so beautiful,
Night seems to be gorgeous
the same night which once used to be very boring,
But now it seems so nice.
The stars seems to be the sparkling eyes of one's love.
The moving leaves are like those two arms calling.
The feeling is wonderful,
The owl's hoot seems that it is calling out to its mate,
To spend the night together.
then slowly when the night turns to dawn,
One feels to see the sunrise together in each others arms.
And then the morning starts.
Getting up early does'nt seem so bad.
Things around which once looked horrible,
Now becomes beautiful....
The old dirty beggar, looks so clean.
The most irritating girl would also not make a difference.
The flowers looked more beautiful than before,
The rose looks brighter.
There always seem to be a dance in every step.
And finally when both meet,
They decide to talk so much
But end up loosing themselves in each others eyes,
Without even uttering a word,
Then the silence speaks for them.
But there are times when everything changes.
And nights are spend in tears,
The stars seem to be covered in clouds,
The leaves no more move.
The owl still hoots, But.........
Everything remains the same but the way of looking at it changes,
The old beggar sits at the same place,
And the roses still blooms bright
But it does not feel the same,
Cause the heart no more smiles..........

.......now that i walk alone

I was walking down the street,
All by myself.
No one by my side.
It was dark and the street lights were dim,
There was a dog sleeping at the side of the road,
And an old man curled up on his cart.
Another man, walking, lost in his own world.
He passed by me and I understood he was drunk.
I thought to myself," Why did he drink?"
Is it out of pleasure or is he hurt...
But the answer was not known.
I moved on...
And was thinking of those nights when we used to walk together,
But now am walking alone, all alone.
I remembered those promises you made,
But now i know those were all fake, made to be broken.
You used to say that you'll never leave me,
But now am all alone.
I remember those times when we used to talk,
And after every alternate word you would speak about your love for me,
If by any chance i spoke of leaving you,
You said you would consider it to be your death day.
If i had the slightest scratch you used to cry,
But now i cry...
And, and when we used to be in cafes
Lost in each others eyes,
People used to call us the perfect couple,
But what happened??
Why did you leave me so broken?
Did'nt even look back for once,
And that rose plant in the cafe,
Which we used to see, the flowers to bloom everyday,
For once i said its beautiful and you wanted to pluck it for me,
But they did not allow you, and you got so angry.
Then you told me to wait and left the cafe,
You returned after an hour or so,
And there was a rose in your hand...
I was in tears and did not know what to say.
I still have the rose but not you........
Back from my thoughts, i suddenly felt someone was there,
I felt it to be you and my heart skipped a beat,
I looked back right at the moment,
But found.....
It was not you, but my own shadow walking with me.........

.........true happiness

It was a dark night,
The only source of light were the twinkling stars.
The darkness of the night was frightening me,
I wanted you to hold my hand
But we were walking as two individuals,
It reminded me of those days when we used to walk hand in hand,
But now i felt we were miles apart.
I knew you wanted to go,
But was not ready to face the fact,
That i had to let you go.
I wanted to fight with God,that why this has to be so,
But you wanted to be free
And how could i bind you in the shackles,
I knew you still loved me, but you just wanted to be free..
We were walking and suddenly you were ahead,
I saw you but did not try to pace up with you,
Cause i knew this was my truth,
I would have to walk alone.
You looked back for once,
Saw me lagging behind you stopped.
I don't know that was out of concern or your love,
But, I for once in that dark night felt nice.
Then we were again walking together as two unknown.
I wanted to break the silence,
But did not know what to say.
Thinking of that I tumbled against a stone,
And to my greatest surprise your arms were there for my support.
Before i fell, u hurried to hold..
But again that same silence prevailed.
It was too much for me,
And breaking the silence I said,
"I LOVE YOU........."
You looked at me and i was amazed,
There were tears in your eyes as of mine.
And that very moment,
You took me in your arms and said,
"I can never think of leaving you again......."

My Lost Best Friend........

It was early in the morning,
I boarded the bus,
There were just a few people in it.
On one corner there was an old lady,
With a big rugged bag.
On another was a young couple lost in themselves.
There was a man who was fast a sleep.
But my attention was attracted by two kids,
They were busy playing with each other.
Seeing them a slight smile appeared on the side of my lips.

And i traveled back to my childhood.
Infact my mind was attracted to the thought of that friend of mine.
I still remember ,even we would have fun like this.
We were so close to our hearts,
That people were jealous of our friendship.
I remember those time when any of us would get angry,
The other would say sorry,and do silly stuffs to make the other laugh.
We used to call each other by different names,
Days used to pass on and our friendship grew deeper,
And we proclaimed to be best of friends.
But suddenly something happened,
And we moved away from each other.
She got new friends, even i had a few.
But my friendship for her still remained.
Deep in my heart i knew she was there,
But somehow that same communication was not there.
Now we are grown,
Both busy with our own world,
But still the emptiness is felt.
Suddenly i felt someone was calling me,
I looked up and saw one pf the kids standing.
She asked me," Why do you have tears in your eyes?"
I could not answer anything but just could stare...........

When i miss You............

I was sitting at the window and looking at the moon
Thinking of you, so that i could be in your arms soon.
Those few moments spent with you revolved round my mind,
And a silent tear escaped my eye.
I caught the tear over my palm,
Cause how could i let the sign of my love flow.
It was an asset to me.
I kept looking at that lonely drop,which looked as sad as me,
When i noticed the moon beam shining on it.
The shine on that drop reminded me of your eyes.
As a diamond in the dark.
I remember those eyes so filled with love and passion.
But now they are not in front of me.
I truly realized how much i miss your absence.
I silently asked the moon,
"When can I meet Him?"
The moon looked at me with sorrowful eyes.
Seeing that i closed my eyes.
And found you in front of me to my greatest surprise.
I could'nt believe my eyes and put my hand forward to touch you,
But you caught both my hands and kissed them gently,
I thought the moon was wrong, and it thought that you would'nt come.
But you were just in front of me, holding my hands.
The moment was so romantic that I said lets have a dance,
But.........................
As i moved you were gone
And the moon was covered with clouds...

Rains.....

The rain pours on and on.
And i think from where is it that the sky gets so much water,
But as i am old now, i tend to reason out,
I shift away from the scientific reasoning,
And i say that the rains are the pent up tears of the sky.
It can't say anything but just can cry.
Rain is a form of joy to the children,
A symbol of love and romance to those in love.
A source of inspiration and independence to the young.
A source of thirst quencher to the desert,
A source of destruction to many..
But still the rain remains a favorite for all.
Some think that an untimely rain is a symbol of someone's sorrow.
Where an innocent cannot shed her tears,
Then the sky sheds it for her.
Rains are portrayed in many forms.....
Be it love, joy, sorrow, independence, destruction...
But if i were a child and it rained in the evening...
There would be only one thing that i would say.....
"Rain rain go away,
come again some other day..................